I’ve just made a big mistake. Normally, I would save this kind of emo entry for my Livejournal, since the majority of the time, I end up marking entries like these as private shortly after I’ve written them- after I’ve calmed down.

However, this time may be different, because my mistake involves me discarding the calming force in my life.

I don’t want to get into specifics. For personal reasons (even though, this is my personal site, some things are just better left to obscurity, I guess). But I would like to point out that I am an idiot. Or, at least, I behaved in an idiotic and irrational way.

I don’t even know if it is worth trying to fix, since the outcome could be better for all involved parties.

So, what do you think? Is it worth trying to fix something, or to just leave it be? I think that the way things currently stand could be better. But at the same time, they could completely destroy something that I thought to be pretty special. In the end, it’s not entirely my choice, and I do have a sneaking suspicion that the other involved party may be quite pleased with the current arrangement, and content to be away from such a mélange of disaster. But I could be wrong. I am wrong about a lot of stuff. I’m generally confused and frustrated. I used to have someone that would help me with that, but I’ve pushed them away.

I’m sorry to be so incoherent and sloppy. I just would like to know if you think that it is worth it to fix something that could end badly anyway?